sometimes I wonder -my conscious is here in this body,but mind ,heart,sub-consciousness run after him.my hands looks for him-like just it need him in it..don't get clue how to stop.i try fully - try to collect myself at one place- but always brake down ,feel so weak -that don't feel that strength to stand..he is not here,will never,i will never see or touch him-in this life,though I know him- only him I received from the force of universe with best some reason.my pain is un bearable but make me proud.i am wherever -may be,but I am with him always,belong to him..it is so true !